1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?

the only time i really find it difficult to look into peoples’ eyes is when i notice i’m doing it. generally, i’m great at eye contact & do it without thinking, but if for whatever reason i become aware that i’m doing it, it gets harder for me. i would have to say that it would probably be harder for me to make eye contact while telling someone how i feel. it’s hard for me to do it as it is, so i would probably be shy or awkward & look down & around. i’m a good listener so i could probably make better eye contact when someone’s telling me something.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?

honestly, i just quit the windwaker after playing for five hours in which case i got really irate at the fact that i couldn’t make it past a certain part. so i’m taking a break, probably for the night. i get really upset with games. i’m not patient by any means. it would be nice, for once in my life, just to be able to beat a game. this is a game that’s geared for kids. kids! i can’t even beat a kids’ game! so anyway, i’m at the final dungeon, where i beat ganondorf eventually, & i can’t even get past the first room right now. i’m still really upset about it, because, like i said, i have zero patience. i’ll probably still be upset until i manage to get through this whole dungeon, or at least that part.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?

well this is an unfortunate situation that i would hope i would never find myself in, & if i’m in hawaii in the first place, i would probably be with mike. so, i would probably call my dad. i don’t even know what i’d say. that is a super shitty question.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?

well i don’t go to the doctor’s; it’s kind of hard when i have no health insurance. but i suppose if that happened, yeah i’d tell someone. maybe not everyone, but i’d tell most of the people i’m close to. i would spend time with them & do things that i figured i’d have my whole life to do. i’d be afraid. i don’t want to die. there are so many things out there that i’ve yet to accomplish. & i wouldn’t want mike to be sad.

5. Love and Trust. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? 

you can’t have love without trust. it is almost impossible to have one without the other.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?

i don’t walk to work, haha. i’ve never been late to work. at least not where i work now. even if i was, i’m pretty sure most people have a heart. even if they didn’t, i like animals more than people. i’d save the dog. i guess if i get fired for saving an animal’s life, then that’s their own problem. i would hope that good karma would find its way back to me. these questions are stupid & depressing.

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?

the one i trust the most & the one i love the most are the same person. however, if they were two different people, i would rather be hurt by the one i love the most. trust is really hard to gain back with me. but when i love someone, i love unconditionally. i feel like being hurt by the person i trust the most would be harder to overcome since i have trust issues as it is.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?

i wouldn’t know what to say. he knows that i’m in a happy & healthy relationship. i don’t think he could live with himself if he compromised that. i guess i would try my hardest not to let it affect our friendship.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?

no. for that one hour, what are they going to do with it? they already know that they’re going to die. so would they just spend yet another hour being upset? i think that would be unfair, & almost disrespectful. i don’t know. i view death a lot differently than most people. it happens. i don’t think one hour is enough for them to do something else that they wanted to do before they died. how many people do you know that are or have been on life support & can’t wait until they die? i wouldn’t want to prolong that.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?

i don’t know. no. i don’t even have a lot of good friends. so if no one else wants to be friends with me, why would i?

11. Does love = sex?

no. you don’t have to love someone to have sex with them & you don’t have to have sex with someone to love them. yeah, being in love with someone makes sex better with them, but it’s not necessary for sex to be enjoyable. & sex is not always necessarily enjoyable just because you love someone.

12. Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?

i was that person. i would never have wanted anyone else to sacrifice their job for me. it worked out better in the end anyway.

13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?

i tell mike how i feel about him everyday.

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?

that i do not love them back. i hate letting people down. i hate when people are upset, whether it’s something i did or not. i don’t want to be the person to upset someone.

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?

my relationship. mike means everything to me. he’s always there when i get home to make me feel loved & make sure i’m doing okay. he keeps me in line. & sane. haha. i wouldn’t want to give up my kitty, either. i love my kitty.

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?

probably my cat.

17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?

no. things wouldn’t be the way they are now, & i wouldn’t want to take a chance to make things worse.

18. Imagine it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?

mike. obviously.

19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?

i don’t know how to give cpr. so no.

21.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?

what the fuck kind of questions are these?

22. Are you old-fashioned?

in some ways. i’m not going into detail.

23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?

my life.

24. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?

never to have loved at all. i’m prone to depression. i don’t handle heartbreak well at all. i’d rather just not have heartbreak, ever.

25. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?

i guess to be surrounded by people who i like to be around & make me a good person. i am for the most part. i don’t know. i wish for a lot of things but if i had one wish i really don’t know what it would boil down to.